my world went from happy as long as i was with you- to dark, depressing and constant wondering why you ghosted me after 7+ years. You cannot even fathom what you did to my heart, my mind and my soul, feeling as if my body had been drained and left empty with no explanation. What you did to me was cold blooded, and nearly killed me. I never in a million years thought you could be so cruel. I loved you so much that it blinded me and didnt allow me to see that side of you. I loved you so much that it drove me crazy, you drove me crazy. You were all i had, and all i wanted, and when we would fight , it wasnt me being mad at you, it was me being mad at the situation. My world revolved around you. Its now 2023 and youre in my thoughts almost daily. I wished you werent but you were part...
Broken Hearts
I had a mental breakdown today this one was one of a kind, I questioned everything even my existence it was so bad, I was restless and then I started crying, I cried as if someone took my most prized possession from me the crying turned into hiccups and then this is where it gets worse.
I had suicide ideation, I need to talk to someone I've never felt this way before everything was just coming all at once it's like I've been keeping things bottled up and the bottle broke this morning, I had to get up walk round my small room lol.. to calm my self when I was a little bit better I remembered what Samuel use to tell me when you are sad watch something funny and I did next 5 mins I was laughing like nothing happened but deep down I knew something happened it was just there at the back of my...
137
It was a beautiful moment having a little chat on the bow, in the tiny cabin, in the studio, in the gondola, in the cafeteria, on top of the hill, even ended with quiet emptiness on the way to see you flying. I would like to thank you for your graciousness and deep apology for not following your way which even planned by nature, still I wish I could return...
377
Were you...
the Seabourn photographer?
the Majesty photographer?
having trinity on your finger?
taking pictures of solar eclipse in Carribean?
giving away Seabourn pen?
loving Subway?
enjoying the night sky on the deck?
loved to drink beer?
watching the shooting stars?
outing on gondola in St. Thomas?
got stranded at stranger cabin?
loved to chat at cafeteria?
escorted to airport?
had a beautiful shy smile?
If so, someone is looking for you...
428
I hope this letter finds you in a moment of reflection and honesty. It's not easy for me to sit down and write these words, but I believe it's essential for both of us to find closure and understanding. Our journey together, spanning almost six years, was filled with love, laughter, and countless cherished memories. However, it was also marred by a painful truth – your infidelity.
Betrayal is a heavy burden to bear, and the scars it leaves run deep. There were times when I questioned the very foundation of our relationship, my unconditional love for you, and your commitment to us. Your actions shattered my trust, but it's my belief that love can be complicated and that people can make mistakes.
Despite the heartache, there's something I want you to know: you will always be the love...
594
I hope you're proud of yourself. Congratulations on successfully breaking apart what was once a meaningful and loving 6year relationship. I'm writing this letter to express the overflowing hatred and resentment that has built up within me since the moment you decided to insert yourself into my life.
It takes a certain level of audacity and heartlessness to knowingly pursue someone who is already committed to another person. Did you think about the devastation you would unleash when you chose to stay, disregarding the pain you were causing? I can only imagine that you took delight in ripping apart the dreams and plans my boyfriend and I had meticulously crafted together.
You've single-handedly shattered the happiness and trust I once had. The dreams we nurtured and the future we...
397
Aug 9, 2023
Hi JK,
I can’t stop thinking about you. I can’t stop thinking about the moments we had together. You were the sweetest, so caring and I couldn’t ask for more. I still remember how happy I was during our first month of dating.
All I ever did was to doubt you. I was selfish and didn’t think your feelings. All I care was to see how worthy I am for you not realizing my childish act. You were the perfect man.
The timing was not right and I was broken that it affected our relationship. I am sorry I couldn’t able to make you feel happy. I am sorry I couldn’t able to give you the best of me. You loved me at my worst and I couldn’t be more THANKFUL.
I regret everything that I did. And wish I could go back. But I know it’s too late. I have already ruined what’s...
338
Looking back now, I laugh at all the times you took me for granted.
But more than anything I want to forgive you. I want to forgive the decade of Narcissistic abuse that led me to become the ugliest version of myself. A version I have to heal, and most likely will have to work on for the rest of my life.
I’m not the monster you made me out to be – you and I both know that. But I’m writing this to correct your wrongs. To tell the world my side, finally.
Just over 5 months in and cheating was already at the surface, but you played me – you played the game so well, I almost want to give you a round of applause.
Women came and went just as my tears did. Many lovers know that struggle, I know.. But the way you went about it was masterful, honestly. Gas-lighting me into thinking it was...
505
Hello Red,
I hate you right now. You are a cheater! A Liar! and a manipulator.
I hate you because I wasted my time loving you.
I hate you because you made me believe that I am the only one, that there was only you and me in our world. And I found out that you are cheating on me half of the time of our relationship. You meet and fuck others. You made me believe that I am the only one, the only one you love so much, you cared so much, you treasured so much. You always give that assurance that the is only me and nothing else. I am hurt, I am mad at you, cause until now even though I forgive you still able and manage to cheat on me, lied on me and manipulate everything. I am hurt, I am crying in pain, my heart is in pain. I hate you so much!!!!!
382
First, I wanna thank you for waiting for me to come back here in PH. Thank you for taking a risk with me. Thank you for not giving up on love. I know how hard it is for you to trust and love again, but you did - with me. Thank you.
I wanna thank you for supporting me in whatever decisions I make in life. Thank you for always believing in my judgments.
Aside from thanking you, I also wanted to apologize for all my short comings. I’m sorry if I wasn’t your ideal woman. I’m sorry for not being the best girlfriend you could have. But I wanted you to know how much I value you, appreciate you and loved you.
I loved you for always trying to make me feel ok, when everything around me is grey and cloudy. I loved you even if you always choose to play Dota rather than talking to me. I still...
466