Love Letters

the years we spent together, i spent them thinking you were different. knowing you were damaged from years of childhood abuse, from a toxic mother with a drug problem, from your physically abusive stepdad, from the paranoid schizophrenic biological father you didn't meet until your preteen years. i recognized that you had baggage, that you had more than a lot of people usually do. i viewed it immaturely for a long time. i viewed you as someone broken, but beautiful, someone i wanted to fix. i guess that's the psychology major in me. i should have known that i couldn't have taken it upon myself to "fix you". that i can't fix you. no one can, but you. none of that is your fault, you didn't ask to be born into the situation you were born into. you didn't ask for years of trauma, verbal...
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She's the only reason why i still wake up in the morning. We did't fall in love in october and that's okay because i think i did. You'll probably never look at me the same and that's okay if i get to look at you from afar. Im closeted in my feelings and i wish i knew all the things i want to tell you, but i never will. And i want to save myself from despair and you from disgust that you would perceive me with i ever told you. I just want to hold you tight in my arms or you to do that when i'm down or if you are. And the whole world will be the same if i don't tell you that but i think i love you already. And i know you would never understand why i'm feeling these things for you because you don't feel that way. And i'm not all-covered in my sex drive but i just want the small things; the...
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Congrats po. Yey! FinallyyYyyYY xd I'm all yours na hihi. Thank youuu for always being there to support me and for the times na I feel confused sa mga decision ko sa buhay. You're always there para ipatindi sakin lahat and I promise na to take that as an advice to grow for myself though aminado naman ako na may pagkukulang rin ako sayo. So yon, sana if may napapansin ka man sakin na di mo nagustuhan, tell me. Para alam ko kung paano mag a-adjust kasi everytime na sinesermonan mo ko, sobrang nafi-feel ko yung care and eagerness mo para mag work tayo and yeah, nag-work HAHAHAHAHHA. I'll promise that I'll continue to know you more, understand you, and accept your flaws. Cheers to the countless years with you! I have found real life companion in you. I love you! p.s. ilang linggo...
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Hey K. I'm just gonna be honest, I haven't really been ok since things fell apart between us. Am I dwelling on every passing moment, ruminating about every text we sent to one another or literally twisting inside at the thought of losing my connection with you... thankfully I'm past that. Nonetheless, I know I still love and care for you. And for whatever reason, my feelings can't reach you. It seems as though every word I say is wrong, or every action is misconstrued. Even as I write this, I'm almost convinced that you don't care about what I have to say. Whether or not that is true, I may never know... but my only point of reference these days is how I feel. But I don't want to move past this point in my life without properly dealing with these feelings. God knows I truly cared for...
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Patrick, Five years ago today, you and I became husband and wife.  I remember as if it were yesterday.  I was nervous because I gave you no other option LOL. Yet, I was still excited and full of love. We didn’t know what will become of us, but we knew that our life and love was special and that we belonged together.  I’m sure many thought of us foolish for taking such a big leap of faith and after only a year together.  Now, five years later, I can say that going to Hilton with you that afternoon was the best decision I have ever made.  Marrying you was the best leap of faith of my life. After countless days of being married, I realized it’ll never be perfect. It is a choice that we make every day. It is a choice of choosing to return to each other again and again even when...
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hey. i don't really know how to begin this so i'm just gonna wing it. maybe it wont suck, it probably will though. a lot of things that you said hurt me. which, i know now, was your intentions. you wanted me to know i was being a complete idiot and somebody was bothered by it. somebody that i made fall completely head over heels for me. you were so in love with me. part of me wanted to get better for you. but then i wouldn't be getting better. does that make sense? i had to get better for me. for my future. and well.. i guess when it's put that way, i was getting better for you, in a way. if i wanted you to be in my future, i had to clean my act up and make something of myself. so, i did. but by the time i finally got it together, you were gone. ignoring all my messages, blocking me on...
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Hi Mahal ko, kahit ganito yung ginawa mo sa akin. Gusto kong malaman mo na mahal na mahal parin kita at kung sakaling babalik ka ay buong puso kitang tatanggapin.
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Hi there! I hope you're doing well. It's your special day. Perhaps, you rarely celebrate "special days" as you already have more important things to do. Even so, I wanted to do these things to express how much I value you as a person and to remind you how your existence means so much to the people around you. I have so much to say, but can't put everything in words. So, let me summarize the whole idea into one word - choices. Life is full of choices. Even not making a choice is a choice. For me, funny but to be honest, I did everything I can to forget you. I even tried to manipulate how I felt and how I thought. Made some regretful choices. Still, dreams about you made up my countless sleepless nights. And, random thoughts about you made up my days. I hear your voice anywhere....
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To my forever: Someone told me to “just get over you”. As true as it may possibly be, it hurts more to do so. I mean, how do you get over someone that’s had such an impact on your life? Someone that you e shared so much with? Someone that you love with every being in you? It’s been over a year that I discovered another woman enjoying your love for even longer than I knew of. She enjoyed you playing father to her kids while watching you walk away from yours. She enjoyed the pain on my face when discovering you and her. I know that we both made mistakes and God knows how sorry I am. God knows I spend every day telling Him I’m sorry and asking Him to whisper it to you each time. How did we go wrong so fast. Do you wonder why I can’t heal? Because I see you when I see my...
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I love you unconditional because of my life right now everything is going on with you look amazing in control of life she needs to comprehend who else would be left here for you
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