He and I grew up together. We were raised by our grandma together while our parents were gone. We had some of the best times growing up. When he had to move away, it was probably one of the saddest times in a five-year-old’s life.
When he moved back nine years later. Everything changed. It took an adjustment period, but we started getting really close. I helped him and his parents move into their new house. We helped our grandparents move into their new house out in the country. We started taking walks and talking about his life back in Maryland. We talked about music and video games. He’s the reason for my love of music. He got me interested in video games. He is or was one of the most influential people in who I am today.
After we got closer, we were inseparable. We played games...
Broken Hearts
It's been a year since we ended. I don't know what happened. To this day i still don't know what went wrong. I'm doing better. I don't know if you care, but I got my life together. I got myself back together. I'd be lying if i said i don't miss us, because i do. But i saw your Facebook, and i can see you moved on, and i know i have to as well. I think we were right but we did it wrong. At first i was a fantasy, it was paradise. But then, we just found that we couldn't make sense. You said we'd still be friends, but i knew that wouldn't happen. I understand that you've moved on, but you didn't have to cut me off. You can't pretend it never happened, because it did. We were a thing. I loved you and you loved me. At least i think you did. I saw you the other day, with your new girlfriend. I...
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To My Abuser,
I was so young when you touched me in places that, at the time, I wasn't even old enough to know that they were private and sexual places on my body. All I knew was that something was deeply wrong.
All day you came up with excuses for touching me like for example, my underwear were showing. I kept my distance the rest of the day. I didn't want you touching me...
That night, my friends and I thought it would be so much fun to camp out in a tent in the backyard. Our parents said yes because after all, what could possibly happen 10 steps away from them. What could happen just in the backyard. A lot, a lot can happen and it did. My whole life changed that night. I was molested.
You came into the tent and took my friends place beside me. Did you even know how...
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I know this has been said a million times in a million different ways, but I can’t seem to break the cliche. I’m sorry for hating you when I see him smile like he used to. And I’m sorry for tearing you down in my head when I think about you touching his skin. My heart hasn’t completely learned to accept the fact that he took his heart away from me yet and I don't know how long it will be until it does. But, it knows that he has the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen and I’d do anything to see it again; even if it means letting go. I don’t want you to view me as a jealous ex because we were friends before I fell in love the way I hope you have, and if you make him happy, I will love you too.
I’d like to tell you a few things. He’s terrified of spiders, there is no way you can expect him...
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To My Ex Love J: I've hated you for the last year and a half, I have so much hate for you that I can't move on with my life, I can't get passed the heart ache I feel every day. My life for 10 years was always about you and your happiness. I don't even know how to live my life without you, I don't know what to do without you, some days I'm just on auto pilot hoping one day I'll wake up and see who I'm really meant to be.
I hate you more than I've ever wanted to hate anyone in my entire life. You used me for 10 years and made me a promise you'd always be my best friend, that we would get married, start a family and love each other, but one day you change, I just kind of delta with the adjustments, you would tell me it's normal to be out all night with your friends and because I was...
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To the man who was too broken to love me:
I'm so sorry that we didn't meet sooner. I was 18 and still in a relationship that I was fooling myself into believing would work despite the distance and the opposite college schedules. Please don't think I never noticed you. I did, but I always pushed the thought out of my head. When my previous relationship became too toxic, you were there. Not in the days that followed, but in the weeks that followed. I think there's something to be said about those who are broken. They're the ones who try to fix others. I want to thank you for that. I always want to apologize for not being able to meet you sooner, to prevent you from being so broken that you could not let yourself love me. I wish I could remove the pain your ex-girlfriends' caused. I never...
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We started as chatmates at a certain dating site, we chat a lot everyday but I never knew that he will play the biggest part in my life. That time I'm broken, or could be perfectly define as LOST! Yes! Im lost because of a guy who made me feel a totally worthless creature, but then this guy came (the one Im describibg in my title) he's first message in the dating site was "oh! I think I won't sleep today because I saw an agellic face in you", he caught my attention coz of his OA message, I msged him back but the first chatting session was just short since we have 7 hrs gap coz his in nigeria and I am in the Philippines (but were both Filipino). Since Im broken I tried to keep myself busy, then I realized that we were chatting regularly ( btw we are in a relationship in just 3 days of...
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I caught myself thinking of you today. Which isn't completely abnormal. It happens every now and then. I often find myself wondering, overthinking, imagining what would have happened if things would have worked out? Where would we be now? How would our lives be different?
You were everything I wanted, everything I'd ever need. But, I hope you're happy. I know that we're still friends, and we have both moved on. But, I still miss you. I still worry. I still hope you're okay, but most importantly I still love you. Not in a sense that I'm still in love with you. However, I still have love for you. If you called at 3am and needed to talk, I'd led you my ear. If you knocked on my door in the middle of the night, I'd let you in.
I was bitter with the way our relationship ended. It...
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To the boy who wore a mask;
You put on a show. You made me believe that you cared about me. You did nothing but lie to me and in the moment, it was okay. I loved hearing that I was the world to you, hearing how much you loved me. Believing that you truly loved me as much as I did made me the happiest I had been my whole life.
But it was all a lie.
You wanted me, along with everyone else, to believe that you were something you really weren't. You don't know how to appreciate what's right in front of you. And sadly, you don't know what's it's like to appreciate what you HAD, even after it's gone.
I challenged you to really think about the person you wanted to be. I give you credit for trying, you attempted to be someone who you've wished to be your whole life. You aren't...
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Dear You,
I have unsuccessfully written you this letter in my head numerous times over the years. In the past, I was unable to put into words exactly what I wanted to say. I couldn't find the right words to say nor could I string together the right sentences to voice everything that was left unsaid between you and I even if you never read this.
Initially, my letter to you was bitter, angry, and full of regrets. But with time, I came to terms with myself and the history we shared. Regardless of not ending up together like we once endlessly promised each other, you were a learning experience that taught me so much. And as time continued to pass, the wounds fully healed, and I realized that I owed you a thank you. I will forever cherish the memories we created together.
You made me...
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