Dear Ex-Best Friend,
Writing you this letter to understand where I was and where I am now.
1. The lie and the truth, all in one.
I wanted to write this letter but didn’t know where to start. I’ll start with the day that ended us to this day. One of the hardest days I have ever gone through. Losing someone to death is easier to cope with then what happened to us. So many times I hear quotes about best friends and even love, which makes me think of us. Don’t get me wrong not in a romantic way but the in-separation, the bond that lasts a life time. To say we are happy where we are in life is a lie, we both know it. Where our lives are at is wonderful but the road we took to get here wasn’t. We should have walked it together and carried each other when needed. Instead we both took...
Broken Hearts
First of all, I want to say, thank you. Thank you for attempting to ruin my life so desperately the way you always did. Thank you for intentionally, falsely accusing me of horrid things that you cooked up in your own twisted mind, and then taking the time to pathetically try to convince everyone that they were true. Thank you for the hateful words and insults that derived solely from your own bitterness, jealousy, insecure/anti-social personality, and broken heart. But most of all, thank you for helping me realize that you're the one who needs help, not me. No matter how hard you tried to make it seem that way. And I am truly sorry if I have ever done anything that has hurt you in any way because I take no pleasure in bringing others down, unlike you. It hurts me to hurt others. So I...
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It's funny that's what I call you... you and I probably have two completely different ideas of who I am nowadays. We haven't talked in a very long time, and for good reason. All we ever did was fight for months until finally you put an end to it as best you could. So I realize it's odd for me to come out with this letter all of a sudden. The reason I write this is not to apologize, or try to fix anything. No, this is as shattered as a glass hitting the floor. We've picked up the pieces and tossed them out a long time ago. There's nothing left to fix. The reason I write this is to finally give you the truth. Being free from the chaos surrounding us has given me a lot of clarity, something I didn't have years ago. I'm sure you have no interest in listening to me, but I wouldn't write...
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Dear -Insert Name-,
When I first met you, I would've never thought you would've had such a big influence on my life. You made me so happy for so long- many moments that I'll never forget. I remember reading a blog someone posted, about how their biggest fear was someone falling out of love with them, for simply the same reasons they fell in love with them. When I first read that I was shaken. I didn't realize at the time I read the blog, the reason it shook me so much is because that was exactly what was happening between us: those silly habits of mine that you fell in love with were now things that made you cringe. We began to have many differences and even more disagreements about those differences.
I can't put all the blame on you for the failure of our relationship; because I...
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Alarm Clock
Life got in the way of my life
it continued to take place even though I wasn’t ready.
It kept moving along while I was distracted
while I was ignoring and denying it,
it moved forward unconcerned
and I got older.
Not looking at yourself doesn’t prevent it
not acknowledging it doesn’t change what has happened.
While I was brushing my teeth and shaving
my hair turned grey.
When I was at the grocery store and the gas station
my body began to break down.
I aged while doing the dishes and vacuuming and while the washer was running.
While I was surfing online and writing emails, my youth ended.
You were out, meeting new people, learning how to socialize,
I was at home, reading about ancient cultures.
You went out on dates, learned about yourself and about others...
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They keep telling me to move on. To get over you. They say that I've been this way for far too long, I just, I don't understand how they expect me to be okay. I confided in you, you were the one person I told everything to, and one day you just decided to get up and leave. You said that we could still be friends, but you and I both know that was a lie, we've talked once since the break up. We talked once 68 days ago, and I was too intoxicated to even remember the sound of your voice from that night. I'm just, I'm not like them, you should know that, you should know that it doesn't take me days, or weeks, it takes me a lifetime, to just get up and forget about the last person I said "I love you" to and meant it. Whoever says that time will heal the broken heart must have never fallen in...
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In everyone's life there are different experiences; one of them is the first love. My first love was dazzling yet aching. Everytime I go back to those memories, my eyes water and I feel like I could have done so much better. My story began 3 years ago, when I was only fourteen. I was inexperienced and naive; I thought that there was no heartbreak in this world.
It was the last day of school when I first saw him. His eyes made my heart skip a beat. That first moment when I saw him is engraved in my head. Too bad I didn't knew his name. Summertime came, I opened my Facebook and hunt one of his friends' account to know what his name was. Yeah, you can call me a stalker. That day I was really desperate to know what his name because I was head-over-heels on him. Then one day, God heard my...
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You were the one that I fell in love with my senior year of high school and you were my first love. Boy, did I sure want to spend the rest of my life with you but it's funny how things change. See here's the thing, this isn't to glorify how great our relationship was because it wasn't. We started dating October 2015 and you broke up with me without reason the first week of January because it was right after Christmas. All the clothes I had bought you I got right back because you weren't worth enough. I showed you everything that you said the last one couldn't. You took that for granted, just like you took me loving you and caring about you and making myself miserable for you.
I fought and fought to get you back over a series of months, but it was nothing to you. I was nothing more...
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Dear Friend,
Thanks. Thanks for leaving me at home alone on another Saturday night listening to sad music while you go out and laugh with the girl that you clearly see as your one and only best friend, even though I was the one who has ever let you cry into my arms. Thanks for letting me down again and again, when I loved you through it all more than anything else in this world. That's right. When I was wrapped up in bed all those hours during the day while you were out having the time of your life, I still loved you. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy; I practically sold my soul to you, and you couldn't care less.
Maybe you think this is absolutely selfish, to blame you and your happiness for my melancholy emotions, but I'm not doing that at all. I'm just letting you know...
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It's been some time now since we have parted ways, though the decision was not my own I understand and realize that I was a large cause of it. Time has moved slower than my thoughts it seems, at times it felt like I was a day ahead of where my physical body was presently at. Other days my mind was in the past and some days, although seldom, I lived in the present moment. It was an overwhelming struggle getting to where I am now, as I am also sure wherever you are at has been the same. I am at that point where I am ok with just living life and taking things as they come, sometimes I get a bit of anxiety though wondering where I am going now. I know things between us moved quickly, from meeting to a date, to giving each other a title. Something about you though drew me in like magnets...
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