When we met you were everything to me. I fell for you hard and fast. For years we dated on and off. You had made mistakes in the past, shoot we all have. I forgave you after 4 years. We tried again and it seemed like you were a completely different person. Sweet, caring, and compassionate. We had talked about starting a life and family together. I’ll never forget the day we found out we were going to be parents. There was a light in your eyes on that day. However, that light faded very fast when we had lost that little one. You had started to get more aggressive again, more angry. You scared me on multiple occasions. As I was dealing with the loss of our little one you ignored everything around you. You turned to video games, booze, and drugs. You left me to cry and hurt alone. I needed you in that time. Then came the day I found out you were cheating on me. I wanted to leave so bad, you begged me to stay. I knew I should’ve walked away then, but I didn’t. The next few weeks were hard but you had gotten on one knee and proposed to me in front of your family. I said yes with the biggest smile on my face. We were happy once again, or at least I thought we were. Couple days passed and I started felling different. After a lot of convincing myself I took that last test that I had saved. It showed positive instantly. I was scared to go through everything again I drove to my moms to cry and talk about everything. I returned home and told you the news. You didn’t believe me... I was so broken that you’d think I would lie about something like this. I went to the doctor to confirm and to prove to you I wasn’t a liar. Sure enough they had confirmed it and everyone was saying congratulations at the doctors office. I wasn’t happy, I was terrified. What if I lost this one too? I pushed that to the back of my mind and smiled through the pain. I had just started a new job and me being away from home made you upset. One night I had come home from work and you were so mad at me and I didn’t know why. I grabbed your shoulder to give you a good night kiss and that’s when it happened. I remember you being on top of me, slapping me, chocking me, calling me every name you could think of... I had gotten you off of me and our child after 10 minutes of enduring that... I called my family, packed up my stuff, and headed to the hospital to make sure our child was okay. I pressed charges, filed a report, and went to court throughout my whole pregnancy. I’m stronger now and it kills you to see me like this. So I just wanted to thank you. For everything. You gave my life purpose, I have my little one who looks up to me. You made me stronger, I haven’t let anyone used or abuse me and never will again. You set me free, I had loved you for 6 years and now that’s gone. You made me cautious about who I’m around, I met someone who truly makes me happy and loves my little girl already. Again thank you for making me who I am today so that I can show our child she will never have to bow down to a person like you. She will be so strong just from the lessons she will learn from some of my mistakes.
Open letter to the one I unfortunately loved:
Subject: Open letter to the one I unfortunately loved:
Date: 30 Jul 2019