To my first love

Subject: To my first love
From: A friend
Date: 20 Jan 2020

I'll never be able to tell you this so I thought I'd let the world read it instead. I've loved you for 3 years now, since the second I laid eyes on you. I don't know if you know this but I saw you at a concert before we even became friends and I knew it from right then and there.
We became friends 3 years ago, and lets just say, you rocked my world. With you, I never knew where our friendship stood but I never wanted just a friendship with you. I don't know what you ever wanted for me but all I know is, the timing was never right. Honestly, I don't know if we were right for each other at the time.
3 years ago I was immature, unsure, insecure and above all else, scared of how strongly I felt for you. You were strong, beautiful, compassionate, detached at times, cold at times but so warm at other times. You knew exactly how to keep me on the edge of my seat without ever letting me wonder off too far.
Your friendship helped me through so much and that entire time I was falling without realizing how far and fast I was falling for you. A year knowing you went by in the blink of an eye and then suddenly my world went cold when we parted ways. I didn't understand what it meant to truly miss someone until then.
2 years go by and we lead completely different lives. For 2 years, I missed the person I called my best friend and that I, can finally say after 3 years, fell in love with. In those 2 years, I grew into a person I knew I would always become, someone I can be proud of. My confidence has flourished, and I'm not scared of my feelings, not anymore.
2 years had gone by before we reconnected again. You're not the same either, but I'm so proud of the person you are today. You're stronger than before, more free, more the person you always had wanted to be.
I'm still so in love with you, I think a small part of me will always be in love with you. You taught me to always be positive, even if there isn't anything to be positive about, and to love unconditionally. You taught me how to be myself without any regrets. You taught me what it means to be human again.
You'll never know this, but you've made me who I am today. I'm glad today I can call you my friend, a good friend. However, I'm madly in love with you and I hope one day I'm able to tell you that freely and confidently. Until that day, I hope you know how proud I am of you and I'm profoundly grateful for everything I've learned from you, my first love.