You Bastard!

I need to write this letter Because I'm happy now and nobody likes it when you bring up the past. Not my past. I need to write this because you're in prison now. You're in prison because you tried to kill your wife. You strangled her almost to death. A woman who so easily could have been me. Only a year and a half ago. I need to write this because you thought it would be okay to call me from jail even though we hadn't spoken in over a year. Maybe you thought I'd bail you out like last time, and the time before that. But those times were different. This time I don't love you. And it's not me that you hurt. So I dont get to decide that you're not guilty. I need to write this because you thought that I'd pay a whole three dollars to hear your voice from...
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An Open Letter to My Abuser Did you know that today I stood in a very long line at my local bookstore, and had an anxiety attack because there were men behind me in line? Did you know that everything you did would have that long of an effect? Did you think that nearly 3 years later I would still feel pain because of you? I am willing to bet that you didn’t, I have battled you every day since the night that you decided to hold me hostage and rape me at knife point. Although I don’t have to battle you physically, I must battle you mentally for the rest of my so called “worthless” life. I have tried so many times to forgive you because I know that is the right thing to do, and I have so many times before, but every time I go to the next isle in a store because there are too many men in...
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To the man that molested me: You molested me when I was 4 or 5 years old and I repressed those memories for over 25 years. For 8 months, I have remembered everything you have done to me. When I close my eyes, I see the dresser right in front of the bed when I felt your penis in my butt. I see your sister lying on the bed beside me fast asleep. I can feel your ejaculate on the top of my butt checks. I can smell your sweat in the room. I can hear my dad calling your name and I can feel the comforter on the bed. It was white. These memories and flashbacks have come back in various intensities over the last few months, but they are still present with me every single fucking day. This happened 25 years ago, but the impact is still strong and it has changed my life. The thought of...
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Dear ex friends, I'm sorry you guys felt the need to leave me out of everything. I'm sorry you guys didn't think I was good enough to be part of your "group”. Most of all I'm sorry that I believed that for the longest time, because you see, I am good enough! I still don't know why whenever you guys see me you feel the need to flip me off or whisper things to me. I don't know why you feel the need to lie about it to your parents when you're mean to me. I don't know why I feel the need to care that you're doing all of those things. I don't understand what I did to you to make you feel this way about me, but just know that you're lost,not me! I have found a new group of friends who except me for who I am, love me as there sister and treat me like a deserve to be treated. They've taught...
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As a young girl I always dreamt of "prince charming". Little did I know you'd show up so early in life. I received cute texts, uplifting spirits, promises you swore you'd keep, little notes left around my house for me to read when I least expected it. You gave me the spirits I had needed to keep chugging along. And, boy was I in love. I gave you my all and more, I wanted my prince to be so happy, even if it meant I wasn't. I left home, I stopped talking to friends, I abandoned the people that were truly always there for me. I gave you every last bit I had to give. Sure, you helped me when I fell, you gave me rent money when I was falling short that month, you bought a few groceries when I couldn't. Yeah, you started to make me happier than ever. But, what you didn't do...
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You absolute bastard. I could quite happily punch you in the face. Repeatedly. You asked for my hand in marriage then made my life a misery from the moment I said yes. I suppose I could have continued to cope with the financial issues you caused by your sheer inability to check your bank account every once in a while and lack of memory when it came to paying bills. I could have coped with your oppressive, bossy, interfering parents too, I managed well enough when you were seriously ill and I had to take care of you whilst working fifteen hour shifts to save for the wedding that never happened. But I couldn't cope with your lies. You lied to me, you lied to your family. You were, quite frankly, a little lying shit. Lying to me about your credit card etc. was bad enough, but to tell...
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Dear the ex-boyfriends who are now best friends We thought we never would have to say this. That you were the only ones for us and that you actually loved us. Can you believe that? We actually thought you loved us. You were the perfect boyfriends, well to the people around us,but we knew different. We knew the way you thought and we were fools to believe that we could change you. We knew who you were the past you had but we ignored that and it would of been nice to have actually been treated differently. You don't think we know but we do. We know you were talking to other girls and cheating on us but we didn't say anything and you know why? Because for some reason we actually loved you. We wanted to be with you and we wanted you to be with us. We know. We know you; the way you act...
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A thank you To the guy who thought he broke me: Thank you..... Thank you for breaking my heart Thank you for cheating on me and hiding it for so long Thank you for leaving me out of the blue Thank you for leaving me with questions unanswered Thank you for making me come to terms with reality THANK YOU!!!! There is this saying that "if you lose someone, but find yourself, you won" At this point I am proud to say that I have won Well here we are months after I thought life would not carry on. At the time I thought you were the only one who could make me happy, and make life fun. I have come to learn that I am beautiful girl with an even more beautiful heart. I never ever deserved to be treated and dogged up the way you did to me. You did me wrong, but I have come to...
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Today while checking Facebook I saw you show up in the people I might know area. Your name brought back all these awful feelings. That self loathing and distorted body image I still have as a constant reminder that our paths ever crossed. Since we were both small children you would taunt me, tell others to ignore me, belittle me, and call me things I'd rather continue to try forgetting. You made me lose hope in the world. I remember high school when you'd call me ugly every day as I walked by. I remember you joking about raping me to my brother. I remember you making my life hell. I doubt you remember though. I doubt you care. But here's the thing... I never gave up like you thought I would. I never stopped being a geek. Looking at you now I feel sorry for you. I hear people...
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You came... I never expected that. That was just a simple invitation. Yet you did came. That was no accident, I believe. We started talking... those talks became an every-night-conversation. We shared stories. We shared moments. We shared lives. We even made a vow to be open to each other. No secrets. Sounds silly right? We created that kind of friendship that was established well. We even made it to the point that we talk about us. You made it clear that we can only be friends. I'm cool with that. What could I ask more? I want you to stay so even if it means only being a friend to you, I will grab it. Days... weeks... months passed. I can't help it. I'm falling. I'm really aware that you will never catch me but I let myself believe that it's really fine. I never told you about what I...
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