I've been debating on weather to do this or not, and honestly I'm just tired of crying over and over again about the things that obviously ain't changing.
You have been an addict for so long it's became just who you are. And I hate that for you. You think noone understands you but don't forget I was an addict to, now sober, wishing you was to.
U have been put of jail, rehab.. and still no change.
Everytime I see you, you seem worse off than before. The last mug shot I seen of u literally broke my heart. I just want you to know your not alone and you can change. I want you to be here for me and your neices... but your not..
I want a sister I can call and talk to but I cant.
I want someone to go shipping with and to do girlie stuff with.. but your not here... I just want my...
How to cope with family
Hello.
I don’t know your name, your face or your story. All I know is that one day, maybe late at night, you looked up an open letter for the loss of a sibling. I know that at some point in your life your sibling passed away, leaving your family torn in pieces and you are struggling to see past that.
How do I know this? Maybe because one night in my senior year of high school, almost 10 years after my brother died, I did the same thing. I found exactly 3 letters. 3 out of 1000s of letters. Letters for parents, letters for spouses, even letters for pets. But what the world chooses to hide, chooses to block, is the pain of loss in a child, or even an adult, when they lose a sibling.
I know that when it happened, your soul felt torn to shreds. You didn’t know if your...
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If there's anything that I've learned recently it is that it's much easier to pray for someone when they've done everything right. It's a much harder task to root for them when they are lost and confused. I spent my entire life bitter and angry at a man that I believed had no excuse for leaving me. It took me until only recently to realize that holding onto those feelings was only hurting myself. So instead of being angry and spiteful, from now on I choose to pray for those who have wounded me. I see how lost you are and I see how you hurt. I see how hard it must have been to know that your little girl despised you all these years. And so I choose to let go and forgive, for myself and also for you. I don't require an apology anymore. I don't require for you to make things right. Hell, I...
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It's said there are 3 types of people one should never forget. Never forget those who put you in difficult times, those who left you in difficult times and those who helped you in difficult times. One person who helped put me in difficult times is my own n updated mother. At one point my mother added my name to the deed to her house which she had taken a second mortgage ou ton same when I was in high school. When my mother told the credit union she'd transferred the 2nd mortgage to, she was told to bring me in because I needed to sign some paperwork. This 'paperwork' was presented to me as 'mere formality' that allegedly reflected my name being added to my mother's deed. When I had the deed reversed to its original form in 2013, I sent an updated copy of the deed to the credit union. But...
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So. How's life treating you? I'd be lying if I said you still didn't cross my mind on a regular basis. Do I come across yours? All those nights you lie awake paranoid. Or so you say. Do I cross your mind? I would say I've moved on and have completely accepted that you no longer want me in your life. But once again, I'd be lying. Do you have any idea how much it kills me that you act like I don't exist? It's been two years since I've seen you or my three siblings. Do you really think it doesn't hurt? That it doesn't feel like someone is ripping out my heart with a rusty dagger? Because it hurts more than you can imagine. I pretend it doesn't, trying to convince myself that I'm not hurt. But I am.
I should've known, when you contacted me in fifth grade about my baby sister that it was...
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Dear Mother and Father:
This is one of the hardest letters I have ever written due to the fact that I have had a battle in my mind about what to say. I’m not sure if I should tell you that I’m glad you weren’t there for me because it made me who I am, or I am so sad that you weren’t there for me because it made you who you are. As I sit here, in my dimly lit room at Bible college, I can tell you one thing; I know what true love is. It takes the form of cuddles at bedtime, kisses goodnight, story books, dinners made and the tears shed on the first day of kindergarten. It takes the shape of telling you about my first crush, my first kiss, my first boyfriend. It forms when I come home crying and lay in your lap, tear streaming down my face because that stupid boy broke my heart. It’s...
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Although we have had a tough time getting along having you're approval *used* to mean A lot to me. I always wanted to have a good relationship with you guys. after the countless arguments, name calling a bad blood I was hoping this fighting and arguing could just end. So sick of the constant feeling of not being good enough for your son... After my last attempt to patch things up I'm going to throw in the towel. It took all of me to try to feel comfortable around you guys, I was kind, I was respectful and allowed you to be around our son. But after hearing agian that you were taking badly about me... Why would I want my son in that sort of toxic situation. And I would like for things to be different but having him around toxic people isn't a good thing. I shouldn't have to get the police...
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To my father,
No, I will not glorify you with the title of "dad". As far as I'm concerned, that role in my life is occupied by someone who has actually been there for me. Before I start this letter, I need to clarify a few things. I am not writing this letter for you, I do not owe you any explanations. This letter is not to make you, your wife, your children, or anyone else in your family change your opinions on me. I am writing this letter for myself. For once I need to do something for myself. I need to be heard. I am tired of being silenced, and I am tired of you silencing me.
While genetically, you may be my father, you will never be more than that to me. You and your family can argue all you want, but my feelings and my opinions will not change. You abandoned me. You let me go...
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At 19, I am a single mother. My child like face along with my young daughter never seem to go unnoticed in public.
At first, the whispers and the glares were too much for me. Everything I did was seen as wrong by society. The baby cried? "Well what did she do wrong". There was a constant flow of "you shouldn't do this" and "you shouldn't do that". For a while, I decided just to stay home.
Not anymore. I will no longer feed into the stereotypes and judgements passed againt me. Becoming a mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
The people who make the comment about me being too young, or say things like "dont you know what a condom is", will probably never know that my little girl saved my life from an abusive relationship. She was my key to escaping. She is now, and will...
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You should be a little over a year old now. Last month, we should have celebrated a birthday. There should have been a cake and balloons. It should have been a family event.
Instead, I celebrated what could have been in silence. I didnt mention you to your dad. I don't know if he thinks about you year round, but come October 15th and you'll be all thats on either of our minds.
In my heart, I know you were a boy. I don't know why, it just feels right. When I think of you I will always consider you my little boy. You have a little sister now. We found out about her about the same time you should have been born. She is amazing, and beautiful, and I wouldnt trade her for anything, but sometimes I wonder what could have been if you had made your way into this world.
I know she wouldn't...
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