To my addicted self

Subject: To my addicted self
From: my childhood
Date: 21 May 2016

My dearest little Missy...

Hush, my sweet girl, I know you're sad..and feel very much alone. The tears you fight back burn your eyes, that knot in your stomach grows tighter each night. I know you're fighting a mighty battle but, baby, you are resilient. These wars you face are proof of your amazing strength..can't you see?

It's time to stop running now.. I need you to be still. No more chemicals to numb out your life..wake up, and take back the happiness you so deserve..no one can do it for you. I've heard all of your excuses, and I applaud your creativity..but the war is over now, honey, it's time to surrender -you lost.

It's okay to feel weak, and vulnerable.. you don't have to be in a constant battle. Put your guns down, and allow the strength of others to hold you up when you no longer can. Stop the pity party, you messed up..and it's done now. The past is in the past.. how about we just work on today. Let go of yesterday, don't worry about tomorrow..and just do what you need to do right now. For right now is all you have, be grateful for that.

One more thing, sweet girl, please make sure you take this all seriously. OUR life depends on it..I know that voice of addiction is fierce.. but listen to my voice, the voice of your inner little girl, and soon we will become stronger. We will fight this together, I need you to hold on.. and if there is ever any doubt along the way, just be still. Be still, and find what that little girl in you would do. For she will never steer you wrong.

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